I left my country; when I was only 7 years old, and we left Afghanistan because of civil war.
I left Afghanistan with my family, to Uzbekistan. We were living as a refugee there. I started playing football with my brothers in Uzbekistan, while our family was struggling to start life from scratch.
Life was not easy as refugee, in a strange country, with a different language and no friends.
The only activity which we had was football. I was keeping the goal for my brothers, and I was their goalkeeper.
I choose to play football because my brothers were playing football, and since then football became a part of my life.
After a period we had to move from Uzbekistan to different countries, and then to Sweden as refugee. I didn’t like moving from one place to another place from one country to another, because every time when we were moving I was missing my friends, my dreams.
I didn’t like starting life from scratch, and all over again. We were tired of moving, we wanted to settle down feel home somewhere in this part of the world. Somewhere I could feel like “ NOW I can have my own home, I can start dreaming, and I don’t need to say goodbye to my friends”.
When we moved to Sweden and settled there my brothers encouraged me to start playing football professionally and join a football club.
I started playing in a Swedish club when I was 13 years old, since then I have been playing football professionally.
I also played football for one season for one of the best women’s football club in the Maldives as a goalkeeper.
In 2014 was invited to Afghanistan women’s national team, it was like a dream come true. I was feeling very proud and happy and my family was proud of me. I joined the Afghanistan women’s national team for the SAFF 2014 championship games, with so much excitement and joy.
When I entered first time in an international game with the national team of my country, I felt lucky I felt very proud of myself. I was happy that I got the opportunity to play for my own country.
When our national anthem was played and the flag of my country was waving in blue sky, I was crying, my heart was beating for my country. I had the feeling of power as woman I could bring pride to my country, and I was happy that I had right to do something good for my country, for my own country where I belong.
After my first experience in national team of Afghanistan I was not happy with the management and structure of the national team. I could see that women are under pressure, I read negative comments and feedback in social media, when it was something about women’s football.
I didn’t give up I said to myself “ even though it’s not easy, it will take a lot of effort and energy, I won’t give up. I will play and bring pride home and I stand with football and raise my voice for women.”
I always had a wish for the national team of Afghanistan to experience football on a professional level, and have the opportunity to bring modern football techniques in Afghanistan football.
Now we are very happy that we have professional and experienced coaches, and different events planned for the national team.
The new national coaches give us motivation to take our dreams and goals more seriously and play as a one team for one goal. I am looking so much forward to SAFF games.
The one in only dream and wish of this year is to win the championship in SAFF and bring pride to motherland!